Everything Hurts!

I'm sorry I haven't updated for a while. Life has been insanely hectic and will continue to be rather hectic until May 19th. This will be a short entry, but I wanted everyone to know that I am still training even if I haven't updated my blog.

Today Eitan and I set out to run 16 miles together. We were at Camp Ramah for Passover and missed 2 Sunday practices. We had to make up a very long run on our own and it was ridiculous. The run out wasn't so bad at all. We ran from Shobi's daycare to Venice Beach. By the time we saw the water, I felt ready to sit down. We'd been running for 2 hours at that point. Then we turned around and started to head home. It was hot and I was sooo tired. I kept telling Eitan that I thought he should run ahead, get the car and drive back and get me! He said no and stuck with me. I run slower than he does and he was really sweet and stayed with me. Then my knee started to ache so much and I could feel blisters on my feet. After 3 1/2 hours of running, I my knee decided it wasn't interested in carrying my body any longer. We walked a few miles in for a grand total of 4 hours on our feet.

I decided today that I need to stick to the original plan of the half marathon. I really wanted to go the full 26.2, but I don't think my body is going to go for it... I'll keep you posted!

Deflated

I had a hard time today. Usually my blogs are so happy and hopeful, but today for the first time I thought to myself, "why am I doing this?" Our run was meant to be 13 miles, but at about mile 7 I felt my knee start to hurt again so I stopped at 8 miles.

I had spoken with the coaches and they didn't think I should run at all but aqua jog (I'd never heard of it either, but basically it is treading water with really high knees and moving in circles around the deep end of the pool - no impact). I really wanted to run, and I especially wanted to run 13 miles because it would have been a half marathon! I hadn't yet committed to the full, but I kind of thought it would be cool. Today I thought, I have tons of time ahead of me to get to the full, why kills yourself now - there is no shame in running a half? There is an amazing amount of peer pressure though, well intentioned I'm sure, but people on the team say "you are only running the half? Come on! You can do the full!" I'm still conflicted about it, the coaches seemed to think it was no big deal and we could work past it. It probably isn't a big deal, but I felt very deflated not to finish the run with my group. I also felt angry at my knee for not being on board with the running.

Most of all, I thought if I weighed 30 pounds less it probably wouldn't be so much pressure on my joints....

Good news though, I'm $95 away from my goal! If you've been waiting to donate, I think now is a good time! Don't worry, I'm completed the race no matter what.. walk, run, limp, or crawl.